Knowing When It's Time To Move On...
Seems like every time I turn around there is something
breaking down or vying for my attention in this old abode. I have to admit that
I do live in an antiquated house built in 1920 and have been putting off
finding a new place for sometime due to personal reasons. The cost of fixing up
the place and the upkeep required is definitely stretching beyond the worth of
this archaic property. I have allowed it to steal away much of my time and
energies for far too long. I relate it to owning an older car that keeps
breaking down on you only to find out that the engine needs to be replaced in
order for it to keep from failing. The wisest thing to do at that point would
be to get rid of it and purchase a newer vehicle. The same goes for an older
house that keeps failing. Of course, the struggle for me is not that I have to
sell it and move to another residence - I'm looking forward to it with all of
my heart. The challenge is the timing of it all. There are so many details and
energies that have to go into selling your home. I wasn't quite ready to get it
prepared to put it up for sale just yet. But the final straw came when the
sewer pipe busted and the roof started to leak. At that point I was done.
Nothing like being forced into a decision that you were not ready to make.
However, I know that God had allowed that situation to happen because he knows
when I need to be prodded into making a decision that I have been putting off
for one reason or another. I can look back at my life and see all of the times
I needed a swift kick in the pants to let go of a situation that was no longer
beneficial to me. Sometimes our own stubbornness, fears, or lackadaisical thinking
become an impediment to our prosperity and growth as a person. Thank God for
His fatherly discipline (love) and protection in my life. I totally believe
without Almighty God's (YHWH) intervention and guidance throughout the years, I
would have had quite a few regrets looming over my head. Suffice to say that it
is hard for me to be creative and focus on my writing when I have so many other
things to juggle in my life. I'm hoping that today will be the start of a
renewed commitment to keep writing despite the obstacles that are trying to
prevent me from taking the time to do what I love to do.
